Friday, July 31, 2009

Sleep

There are many things that are over-rated.

Sleep is not one of them.

Sleep is never over-rated.

When it took Bear 13 months to sleep through the night I'd consider those 13 months without decent sleep to be some of the darkest nights of my life. Days too in fact. Did I love being home with my boys, sure. Was I zombie with poor social and coping skills? Absolutely.

Back then I averaged 4-5 hours of sleep a night, broken. I function best on a solid 7-8.

But lately - lately I've been bad about getting to sleep before midnight. And the Bug usually is crawling in to our bed anytime between 6-6:30am. I feel tired around 10pm. Why don't I go to bed at 10pm then?

Because I work full-time from home now. And I spend a good 2-3 hours most nights parked on the sofa, laptop perched on my knees, watching mindless (addictive) reality TV, working.

Somehow, despite being tired all the time, I don't feel like a zombie now. I think it's because my mind is engaged and I have an identity that isn't defined by dirty diapers, potty breaks, ABCs and mac-n-cheese.

I needed this. I think I needed this more than I needed sleep.

But I do need more sleep.

Trying to find the right balance...

2 comments:

Diane July 31, 2009 at 8:36 PM  

I hear you. I routinely stay up later than I should just to have some "me" time. I think, most weeks, I need that more than the sleep. Hopefully you can figure out that balance soon!

mommygeekology August 28, 2009 at 4:06 PM  

Finding balance sucks. As you know I just started a little side business and while I find it super fufilling and fun.. I AM EXHAUSTED ALREADY and I don't even have prices posted.

SIGH.

Hope you find balance soon.