Thursday, April 15, 2010

Once Upon a Birthday

Yesterday my blog was one year old.

365 days of putting myself out there. Here. In this space.

My space.

A place I can belong to.

Everyone needs a place to belong. Everyone needs a group. A posse. A home for your heart, and a place to rest your mind. Friends. An identity.

365 days ago I was struggling to find a place to belong. I had lost my footing, the rug swept from beneath my feet in my own kitchen. In my home. My safe place. That was the end. It was the beginning. Another beginning. A different me.

I didn't like that me for a very long time. I just didn't feel like I fit in anywhere, my identity felt foreign.

And then I got this crazy notion that I could start a new blog. One I might actually keep up with. One I could use to connect with others because maybe there were other people out there like me and I didn't have to feel alone in my head anymore. So I did. And now I don't.

Writing is therapy. Reading. Talking. Sharing. It is good for my soul, and for my heart which still has not fully healed.

I'm a work in progress with still so much to learn and share. I like to share.

Starting this blog was one of the best things I could have ever done for myself. I've found my voice again. I've gained some confidence back. I can be me here and if someone reads this, great. If not, that's ok. I'm working myself out. But, I have connected with some amazing, thoughtful, funny, brilliant, good and kind people, all whom I adore.

I needed this.

So Happy Birthday Baby Blog.

Let's eat cake.